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"Everyone's so engrossed in finding their own happy endings
thay they tend to overlook the ones leaving their lives.. and those that should stay.
&for some people, their happy endings may just be something as simple as moving on.."

bananas.


sighx. it's another day. i ain't feeling any better, in fact i think i got worse)= the day began with a bad start anyway. i woke up feeling empty and amiss, like someone'd extracted half of my soul. torturous. i felt it so strongly today, especially but i still had to yank myself out of bed to attend school. school, it wasn't helping much either. i hate to run to the toilet in between lessons cuz i just loathe it. but i did it again today, for 10 whole minutes (according to devi). i dunt know what's wrong with me. i thought i managed to do it but it seems like i'm falling back again. i wasn't listening to all the lessons after chem. no mood. i was spending my time drawing, colouring on my table and i completed it on time. it's nice.. certainly.






说不出口的愛 迷濛我的视线
发生时太突然 再挽回已枉然
感情只有失去以后才发现
心变得很脆弱 谁能帮我粘好
无法痊癒的痛 谁知道谁明瞭


能不能再到从前 让一切都重演
找回失去的錯 再回到你面前?

project superstar's on now but i can't watch)= darn.. i just realised i've left everything in school today and i can't study when i'm in the study mood FOR ONCE.. that is. i wanted to do bio essay but my text is in school. i wanna do amath but it's in school too. i wanted to study mole and THE FRIGGING CHEM BOOK'S IN SCHOOL ALSO!! urgh.

i was playing the 'seeweed game' with xinni and jules(: sho farnieh. hahas.. it all started when i was talking to cow after school yesterday bout that 'yu le 100%' show hosted by xiao zhu and xiao S, damn funny larhs xiao zhu! yeah man.. at least today i was feeling a teeny weeny better compared to the previous days hmmms =\ oohs and xinni reminded me bout 'gia-gia' HAHAHAS.. "ni hao. ni zhi dao wo shi shui ma? wo shi gia-gia, gia-gia shi wo -laughs-" (translation: hello. do you know who am i? i'm gia-gia and gia-gia is me!!) my gawd.. this whole thing really cracked me up. and he moves in this weird manner.. something like an octopus((: and the jokes he crack are DAMN cold one larh.. leng!! sooo sad i only remembered 2 of them, which is the cabbage one and the 3brothers+shit one)= nehminds.. shall watch and keep myself updated and amused(((:

hehs.. din do much today as in there wasn't any lesson taught during chem and chinese and that bak-gua actually permed her hair!! man.. sometimes i wonder is there really something called 'a brain' up there in her thick skull. doesn't she know that by doing so makes her head appear more hairless? geesh =X

i think the only interesting and engaging lesson today was legacy. we were playing this game of trust i think.. yeah. fawn and i paired up and we labelled ourselves A and B. i was B. hahs and all the Bs were instructed to be blindfolded while the As lead us around the 3rd level. it was frightening sia not being able to see but the whole entire game was FUN(: i was clinging onto jules all the way larh and we bumped into pillars and people. i almost bumped into roslan for god's sake and he was like"BOO!" hahas.. fawn told me i bumped into jia en. oops! and i remembered touching someone too but dunno who larhs =X yeah we swooped places. now it's fawn being blindfolded and while she was walking joz led her to the dustbin and she was sooo close to bumping into it!! HAHAHS((: horny yong made a mistake right from the start. we're not supposed to communicate verbally and we're out there making a hell of a noise. hehs.. like who cares man?

prefectorial board campaign was b-o-r-i-n-g. -yawn- went for training with the juniors but before that i was having a nice chat with charl. sighx, man i take my hats off you. you can really read me like a book)= i dunno if what you said was the truth or not but i really wanna know. then again.. the truth always hurts))= thanks gurl, you and your other soul.

anyways.. training was kinda fun. it rained halfway and we were playing in the rain! yeah((: i love it and when training ended, the rain became heavier and pat and i were all drenched by the time we reached the bus stop. AND MY HAIR IS SOOO FRIGGING WET! grrr.. haish couldn't really talk to her on the way home as planned cuz claire was there. but man.. at least i solved a problem for her((: now i feel accomplished.

hmmmms.. gonna read the papers soon. and since there's like nothing i can do tonight, might as well hit the sack early too. so toodles(:

yeah today's the first day of school.

and it really sucked. how i wished i hadn't come to school today or maybe i'd died in my sleep last night. nothing eventful bout today andi can't seem to absorb what the teachers are saying. is that good or bad? hmmms.

and that frigging pair of thongs actually postponed the geog CA till like next friday and i was like mugging like some fcuker last night, getting all soo stressed up over nothing? i was trying to destress myself the whole time and i couldn't. and i actually did something so foolish and silly =\ i couldn't get to sleep the whole night, it was just sooooo tough)= and when i finally did catch a wink, it was time to get my ass out of bed. like whatever.

i guess have to adapt to this new life of mine. tho i hate it to the core. it's just so not me anyway. i spent lke the last 10 mintutes of english in the toilet with jingchun talking bout stuff. i din wanna get out, honestly. there's just too many shit inside of me that i need to get rid off. soo many. there were like twice when i almost lost grip of myself. actually i did in the toilet but it just wasn't that serious. i just can't seem to put everything aside and all's gonna be okay. no man.. NO! nothing's the same anymore. i'm not an actress, i can't act too. urgh. whatever i'm blabbering here.

i guess there's just too many things that i'm bottling inside.

man i'm feeling so sick now. I'M STRESSED FOR GOD'S SAKE OVER THAT STOOPID GEOG))=

it's like sooooo late now and im alone mugging my night away. i havent memorized my script too. haish. i need to de-stress abit )))=
where're you.. someone?


我的爱是说停不能停 已经浓得不能说是曾经

why did all these even happen?
i hate to spell.

it's late afternoon. where's the convevtional rain?? -slaps myself-

gosh. i'm becoming a geog freak!! i couldn't believe myself when i fell off to sleep when i was studying just now and i slept for 2 HOURS!! =\ man i'm itching all over now, especially my thigh and fingers fcuk off mosquuito!!

hmmmms life's totally BORING for me. there's gonna be tuition tmr and i;ve yet to start on my work. i suddenly realise that I FORGOT TO DRAW THAT GRAPH FOR ABSOLUTE VALUES!! X= kill me someone!!! i still have some chem i dunno what work is that )=

blabber. yak.

my brother's been bugging my mom to bring him to the movies and so, they're gonna watch INITIAL D tonight. i'm not going )= maybe i'll go after school one day.. alone probably? bah..i hate this i hate that i hate practically EVERYTHING! i'm in love with caps(: why can't someone just read me? i hate to spell things out. i shall go back to my work. life's getting boring online))= which is bad cuz it's always the place i seek solace. phuhuhuhuhu.

a ruptured scar;
my healing wound's crying.

听到我的电话响了一声就暂停
会不会是你我总怀疑
因为这原因心情不稳定
我们之间的问题是我不相信你
敏感又多心怕你变了心
因为爱你害怕失去你
爱的天气总是阴晴不定
爱的情绪也在欢笑中哭泣

(baby)想对你说声对不起
用错了方式去爱你
因为我太在意
(如果没有你)我的世界只剩回忆
每天只面对孤寂
已来不及再说我爱你

自从那天分手後停不住泪滴
想念一个人能忘记自己
让我爱你什麽都愿意
如果能再遇见你把你抱紧
从此不分离绝不放弃
我要告诉你 baby i'm sorry
爱的天气总是阴晴不定

this week's gonna be the most boring and worse week of my life.

homework. homework. homework. nothing but work. i'm grounded in a way man)= supposed to be playing lynette and partner tmr at her house -yawn- man.. i'm so bored now i cant even blog properly x= geez.. i cant go for the bbq tomorrow evening too!!! i didn't even manage to go to the airport today to pick JAY CHOU!! -regret- sighx. i'm alone in the hall again, looking through the friendster pics and chatting to two(: i've been thinking. i miss you suddenly again. last night. now. i know i shouldn't. i imagine the twist if i'd not ruined everything. i still feel xyy(: who's gonna hear my turmoil? you're still part of me, i realise. hahs.. but who's gonna respond to me whenever i voice out my emotions? i'm ignored. completely. sometimes all i just wanna ask you is: you're healed already? i bleed. even now. do you even spare a thought for me? sighx.. i'm scarred. forever there. i'm still the fool who still holds on to that slightest ray of hope. maybe it's just my wishful thinking. yeah.. laugh at me people.
ilu. my special friend.

Hmmms. shall blog a little today.

Sat: yesterday jingchun and i went to crystal jade after tuition again for lunch(: kao.. we were so bloated after the meal larh. gosh. lemme see.. chicken and duck porridge, prawn dumplings, mayo prawns, rice in lotus leaves, char siew bun, pork ribs. HAHAHAS((: fat fat le.. ooh and i bought new tennis shoes.. nike. hmm it's white larh cuz i wanna wear them to school so to save the hussle. yeah!! -cheers-

Sun: hehs.. just came back from emath tuition. pamela got so freaked out by a drawing of a tombstone x= maybe it's some religious beliefs or what larh(: chill out man.. hoho jingchun and i wanna go to the airport on tuesday to stalk jay and edison((: hmmms we'll see larh. oh and when we're walking to the hawker center, there's this couple( i assume) who were walking in front of us. hmmms the girl's hair's so funky sia. different shades of brown(: i just see myself in them. boohoo.. it's time to read the papers and finish my heymath's emath )= I HATE ALL THESE HOLIDAY HOMEWORK!! sighx.. schooling can be hard at times..

earcandy: jay chou's secret signal

boohoo.. the song's ended)= but up next is adorable woman! tsk.. it's been such a long while since i played his songs. sighx. his songs never fails to calm me(: they're always there at times when i'm down or lonely. jay chou rawks!

hmm.. just came back from today's training. a storm was brewing at the end of training. sheesh, why didn't it rain earlier? -curses- hahas.. no larh but i wanted to do gym! but i landed up in the courts hitting 5stars. )= and thanks to alina, she reminded me that i was the only sec 3 senior there. hmm oh wells, at least it was kinda slack with qing today. he's in a good mood, suprisingly! :)we're labelled 'heart attacks' ranging from 1 to 7 and i was the last -.- didn't do much today cuz we used up the first hour of training discussing bout our team bbq. I DON'T WANT IT TO BE HELD AT EAST COAST! hehs.. cuz if it does, chances of me attending it'll be slim man =/ and hellos people you want me to carry one bag of ice and 10 BOTTLES OF DRINKS ALONE!? bah.. think i'll bring one or two bottles less. dont think we can drink that much anyway. =O

oh and did i mention bout how infuriated i was with that skinny monkey devi?! urgh.. the mention of this makes my blood boil. i went to her house yesterday and she wanted me to take a bus down. fine. but the directions she gave me was sooooo vague. what alight at the stop after eunos mrt station. like hello do i look like a eunos person? bbaah.. and i ended up travelling on PIE all the way to kallang bahru. and luckily i realised something was amiss or else i would've ended myself up at TUAS! ggrrrr... and there she was laughing hysterically over the phone when i told her i was lost. fish you woman! do you think i would very much like to be the lead for singapore's version of LOST? and.. your grams look so scary! )=

boo.. i hate the sight of that sickening pile of unfinished work on my table -pout- MOMMY CAN YOU DISPOSE THEM OR BURN THEM OR WHATEVER!? hmmm.. sighx have to complete my emath in a while =
ooh.. and i was playing around with some links and i came across this http://www.blogthings.com/ GOSH.. IT'S SO DAMN ACCURATE FOR ME. it produced results that are so close to accurate for almost all the test i've done. yeapyeap.. should go try it out((:

sighx..

i'm doing chinese zuo ye now )= i simply hate this.. piles and piles of unfinished workload.
and i'm SO FRIGGING BORED HERE!! sighx.. can someone just talk to me or shake me!?

going to meet my english group again tmr at MP library.

hmm.. i had a nice dream last night(:
sometimes i really wonder.. does dreams really come true? if they don't then i really wont mind being in a slumber forever. sweetness. was all i felt in the dream. i've never smiled so brightly in a dream before. cuz there was you(:

tsktsk..
I CHANGED MY LAYOUT!! hehs..

(:

hmm.. just bathed. going out in a jiffy to meet the psp. frank talk at jack's place(:
armours in place.

JAY'S COMING TO SINGAPORE NEXT WEEK!?!?

swoosh! he'll be here tp promote his debut movie "Initial D" alongside with Edison Chen and Shawn Yue and other not-so-good-looking artistes. :))they'll be arriving on flight CX717 at 12:30pm but are leaving the next day.. awwww

hmm.. just came back from pp.. was doing our group's drama script. bleagh. i think the school's real sucky. there's like a whole lot of shit waiting for us when school reopens. CAs and tons and tons of work. X=



did you receive the mail?

-sulk- i malu-ed myself in tuition again today. i pronounced pipette as "pie-pat' and that shtupid-dumbdumb-deranged-mashimaro-cum-evilbraces corrected me sheepishly.. he said "erm.. it's 'PI-pat'". argh.. i just had to laugh along with the class. humph.

HAHAS.. yesterday was physical and conditioning in school. as usual qing's pms-ing again. what's his frigging problem larh?! kept double faulting that day tho. )= hmm it training kick started with 7 rounds around the field..gosh!? i think my stamina had really deproved, plus i kinda give up easily.-shrugs- hehs.. i wasn't running at my accustomed pace. kong wanted us to RUN. sheesh and i came in last. )= puhhuhu.. after that was more footwork at the bball courts. X= we ran, back paddled, did criss-cross(the actual term for this is sthsth.. sounds like TAPIOCA! X= ), and crawled in the pushups position. i was weared out sia!! kong said my shoulders were weak.. kinda agree. but miraculously, HE WAS NICE THAT DAY LARH. he joked with us and didn't push us much.. now he's getting into my good books((: anyway we had a short break. the softballers were already in the void deck.. npcc too! i saw threeseveners like peijun( YOU WATCH OUT YOU..I'M GONNA GET DONGLIN TO SPAM YOUR PHONE!! HOW DARE YOU SMACK ME! \=), fatin, mel and viv. sprinted along the long jump track.. according to idiotickong, it's 75m. hmmm.. i was paired up with tab. she looks dao but not really larh(: lunges after that.. damn slack larh that time. idiotickong didn't mind us fooling around, he even REMINDED us that twitch and qing're inspecting from the courts. the world has changed. (:

after training i stayed back.. to wait for pat to finish her match with gou and steffi. honestly, i really think it's a disadvantage to stef's pair. they've been hitting for hours and gou's having a back injury. hmm.. nevermind. shan't be a nose parker. anyways.. i'm supposed to go pp with pat and lynn came along(: we ate at bk and it rained so heavily suddenly. it really triggered some memories..sighx wells.. went up to the arcade but we're in our pe attire and we changed outside east zone!? phew.. the manager was suspicious of us at first X= but SUCCESS we smuggled ourselves in. that crazy lynn danced parapara and she commented that i look like some mashi maro dancing -.- HAHAHAHAS.. then my mom called and i have to meet her at breadtalk fast )= couldn't speak to pat privately but i managed to tell her abit. she looked kinda taken aback by the news. ((: she's a farnieh junior(: tsk.. go back indo and slowly digest the news larh..

gosh.. now my legs hurt i can't sit for long cuz i'll have pins and needles in my muscles and joints when i stand up X= -whines-

SHOOSH!! i was supposed to go for the yes93.3 outdoor concert thingye today at 7pm but i didn't go in the end )= and i heard from viv that fir sang very well )= booo..

我只好把我想说的话都放在心里
我知道我回辛苦也回难过
但我什么都愿意
因为我只想要你开心

静静忍住痛

i realised i'm kinda a pessimist when it boils down to my personal problems. but whenever i come across people's problems, i tend to console them to look on the bright side of things which i seldom do to myself. hmmms..

doing amaths now((: or probably.. later

hai.. i need a bitching outlet soon. )=
i'm erupting inside.
i'm making an effort to dial a hotline, some christian hotline and there'll be this middle aged man's voice blabbering to you for 2 mins.

ack.. there's training tomorrow at9am zzzz I WANNA SLEEP!! )= i hate trainings ggrrrr!

went towning today and got bear her present((:

hmm.. geesh I'M GONNA START MY DAILY EXERCISE FROM NOW ONWARDS!! grr.. growing longer's not appilcable to me anymore but growing wider seems to be frequent x=

i don't know what to blog about now. i'm having that blogger's block again )= but i feel like changing my layout again!
hai.. i wonder i wonder i wonder

Happy Birthday Vivienne<33
Happy Birthday Beverly!!

ack.. amath tuition this morning was a headache! learning absolute values now. the graph questions especially, bleagh, fullstop. chemistry wasn't that bad, quite stoopid though, i made a fool out of myself on some occasions X= ma ang told us to browse through the stocks for her new shop in pp. well but not exactly HER shop but she's holding a manager position(: all the goods were so expensive!!! it's branded -- rusty. we were discussing bout the design and colour of the membership card of rusty ms ang wanted the card to be designed into a handphone accessory but hwee and i were saying that it's bent to detach when you pull too hard.

hehs..

hmm went to the library after that with viv, borrowed 2 books. AMAZING SAM!!

iloveyou*

gosh.. -gulps- i suspect i have breast cancer!?
my boobs especially that -ahem- x= hurts whenever i poke them

bleagh

chatting with that devi rangaswamy now, we're discussing bout our excursion tmr to little india. hmm we're going there to collect more info about tosai for a report((: HAHAHHAHAS!! hmmm then we're heading down to bugis, bringing down all the neoprint shops one by one hahs.. and hopefully jules can meet us =D

hmm supposed to be out shopping today but then that girl's ill, ulcer infestion!! xD
take care arh silly toot and drink more water!! -chuckles- hopefully sunday'll be our day((:

sheesh.. i'm getting old seriously I ACTUALLY FORGOT WHAT I WANTED TO SAY IN THE NEXT SENTENCE!! oh nevermind, my mom wants to use the computer.. so toodles

(:

bleagh.. this is nothing but a pile of crap.

i'm waiting.. waiting and waiting =/
trying hard to swallow words down my throat.

最爱你的是我　
否则你怎么让我
否则我怎么可能
赴汤蹈火　
你说什么都做

i've posted another chain letter.. again! bleagh -knocks head- i'm tricked time and time again by the title of the bulletin )= boohoo..

i'm trying to finish this bulletin.. argh!