hear tis' sweet-nothings
"Everyone's so engrossed in finding their own happy endings
thay they tend to overlook the ones leaving their lives.. and those that should stay.
&for some people, their happy endings may just be something as simple as moving on.."
Monday, March 31, 2008
i'm sorry i can't be perfect; 9:53 PM
i remembered hoping that today will be a better week. well.. today's the first day of the (brand new) week.
but apparently my wish didn't come true today. (hopefully it will tmr)
look on the bright side sam, today's the last day of march! &i know april's gonna be a month full of good suprises waiting for me.
right? right? right?
right.
i screwed up both my chem and bio march common tests. that's it.. remedials for me ):
what does it feel like to be standing on an iceberg surrounded by the deep vast ocean.
everything just seems so close but yet so far.
.
.
april's gonna be a better month.
tomorrow's gonna be a better day for me.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
; 11:41 PM
it's been rather common lately, thinking of redefining what i'm looking for &the consecutive events that led me there.
but i'm a bit lost.
i had a dream last night. a bad one.
yea.. everything that happened this week is bad.
i was awoken by the extreme fear
i experienced in the dream.
we talked about our lives till the sun came upand now i'm thinking about how i wish i could go backjust for one more day.. one more day with youtomorrow's gonna be a better week for me (please?)
Friday, March 28, 2008
; 10:16 PM
hmm. this blog's becoming an escape for me whenever i'm down.
myfc_k, this week's been awfully bitter. nothing's been right ever since the m'sia trip.
what happened exactly?
i made a choice to face up to the ugly truth about friendships. &everyone knows, the truth hurts.
furthermore i discovered some more stinging truth about myself in this whole friendship mess.
&it seems that whatever i do or say's wrong. i needed to seek solace somewhere..
but i never got to
my listening ear. ahh whatever. anyways the bottomline's just
i am not a substitute. i don't have to fade away silently whenever she's around &take her place when she's gone.
that was just mess number one.
mess number two. i should/need to:
1. mature
2. lock my active imagination
3. put more faith in trust
4. rip out the scars of history.
i
don't want won't let history to make it's comeback. yes?
pssst.. i know you've been very tired lately. &thankyou so so so much for the gift i rlly love it &all the problems mattered no more for a moment.