Monday, June 27, 2005
; 2:17 PM
yeah today's the first day of school.
and it really sucked. how i wished i hadn't come to school today or maybe i'd died in my sleep last night. nothing eventful bout today andi can't seem to absorb what the teachers are saying. is that good or bad? hmmms.
and that frigging pair of thongs actually postponed the geog CA till like next friday and i was like mugging like some fcuker last night, getting all soo stressed up over nothing? i was trying to destress myself the whole time and i couldn't. and i actually did something so foolish and silly =\ i couldn't get to sleep the whole night, it was just sooooo tough)= and when i finally did catch a wink, it was time to get my ass out of bed. like whatever.
i
guess have to adapt to this new life of mine. tho i hate it to the core. it's just so not me anyway. i spent lke the last 10 mintutes of english in the toilet with jingchun talking bout stuff. i din wanna get out, honestly. there's just too many shit inside of me that i need to get rid off. soo many. there were like twice when i almost lost grip of myself. actually i did in the toilet but it just wasn't that serious. i just can't seem to put everything aside and all's gonna be okay. no man.. NO! nothing's the same anymore. i'm not an actress, i can't act too. urgh. whatever i'm blabbering here.
i guess there's just too many things that i'm bottling inside.
难道不能坦白的放声哭喊?
要从心底拿走一个人 很痛 很难