Saturday, July 16, 2005
; 8:43 PM
this is becoming really hurtful.
i still can't figure
how someone so beautiful at first can turn so devilish in a blink of an eye?
you.it took me ages just to get over you.
i know it's peanuts to you to forget forever.
and now when i'm starting to step out of this once and for all
your harshness ruined me. completely.
you pushed me back into that whirl. WHY CAN'T YOU JUST SEE?
there's a limit to all these
i'm utterly disappointed
you shunned. you avoided.
and i'm here trying to solve the problem.
you obtained pleasure from my turmoil
do you think it's right?
cruelty isn't the best solution. IT'S THE WORST.
sighx..
your method doesn't work on me.
you're killing me instead.
why can't we return to what we were before everything happened?
those tears. scars. pain.
you inflict on me.
let me repeat:
I'M A SOMEONE. I'M A GIRLI'M A GIRL WITH FEELINGS, EMOTIONS. I'M NOT SOME TRASH THAT YOU PICK UP AND DISPOSE ANYTIME YOU WANT.I'M ALIVE. I'M NOT INVISIBLE.AVOIDANCE IS NOT THE SOLUTION.THINK ABOUT YOUR EVERY ACTIONS. I DON'T BELIEVE YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE DOING IS AFFECTING ME.BE MORE SENSITIVE!I'M TIRED. I REALLY AM.STOP HURTING ME WHETHER IT'S ON PURPOSE OR NOT.SPARE SOME FRIGGING THOUGHT FOR MEPLEASE.I BEG YOU..i really don't wish to carry that clumsy facade to school anymore.
this will really be the end of me.