Wednesday, July 06, 2005
; 9:56 PM
today's a wednesday.
just bathed i smell nice((: just had training. training was okay larhs except that most of the sec2s were out at some bukit-something place for their NE learning. BOO i oso wanna go )= hehs. bleagh fine i dint turn up for training last friday and now i have to squeeze in all the matches this week. eurgh.. my mom's gonna have something to say again.
TOMORROW'S JINGCHUN'S 15TH BIRTHDAY!! ((: and there's chinses compo test tomorrow =
haish.. i can't seem to get out of that shadow. i kept thinking i can walk out of it but it just seems that part of it is still hovering above me. at least it wasn't as bad as before. i'm so sick of wearing that facade in school. i dunno what came over me today.. again. that bitter sour feeling. i teared again, when i know exactly that i hate the feeling of swallowing back the tears and attempting to stifle that trembling weeping sound. eurgh i wonder how long is this gonna take. maybe another day? another week? another month? or maybe another year.. yeah. i can't help all these ramblings. i dunt know who i can turn to anymore. my blog maybe. or you? neh.. i always wonder why is it so easy for you to avoid and ignore my existence. why can't we just talk it out and sort everything out? isn't that an easier alternative for us? haish.. i don't want to be like this too. but your actions are slicing me up silently, can't you see? when our eyes meet now.. i don't seem to see the you i see in the past anymore. what can i do?
when my heart keeps calling for you: imissyou dearly )=
这些回忆是我的谁也不准碰
tomorrow我不管
就算我的心很痛